Just a heart (a haibun)
I honor the Force who/that sowed the seed who became me. In degrees though often unaware, I grew a heart.
from rumblings a sprout answers to a name
Lashed by winds, bathed by rains, kissed by moonrise, swaddled by fog, cradled by dawns, how can I be less than a song
neither eye nor lips the knowing sky
They say I leave footprints, scents, echoes, a ghost prowling with the fox for a lair, yet no one says my name
far off foghorns for every one
(My response, originally posted as a comment, to Dan Hasse’s powerful haibun at Facebook: thank you, Dan!!)
My offering for International Haiku Poetry Day 2015 today
mornings
in the language of camellias…
moonrise too soon
my flight
prompted by a unicorn–
blue mountains
peel by peel
the moon in my palm
a heart
serenade
with a sleight of his hand
a lilac sky
unveiled
a cascade of apple blossoms
in the widow’s breast
in the deep (a play on sounds and shapes)
no other way but
to skinny deep here…see
even in the deep
the wind
pass the jelly (((-oo> please
whooshing )–oo>>>> water
even in the deep
the \V/ wind
pass the jelly <<<<-oo> please )–oo>>>> water pops
off the breath of a whale
my soul in the wind
under the wind
<shark eyelids>
as i, conger, riding the deep
flaring petals (haiga link)
I can’t figure out how to add the visual (media) here, and so, please click on the link to view the haiga. Sorry!
flaring petals
breath within breath
their dawn
nagging rain & wave lashings in THF’s Per Diem February feature
My two haiku in The Haiku Foundation’s ‘Haiku in the World’ February feature on the Philippines:
nagging rain
on the moon’s face…
a baby’s whimper
The Haiku Foundation Per Diem, February 9, 2015
‘Haiku in the World’ February feature: The Philippines
Per Diem Archive on The Haiku Foundation Website, and the Haiku App
wave lashings—
with every breath
the shore yields
The Haiku Foundation Per Diem, February 1, 2015
‘Haiku in the World’ February feature: The Philippines
Per Diem Archive on The Haiku Foundation Website, and the Haiku App
As you could surmise, both haiku rise from images of natural disasters which had wrought much havoc and suffering in the Philippines these recent years. In the distance, and the years I have lived in Canada, every face in each calamity transports me back home with the same intensity as if I were there and the same emotions and fears rise again as implied in these two haiku.
About
autumn wind
wondering about lilies
in a mountain pond
Tell me a writer who really gets a satisfying jornal, in Spanish a daily wage or its equivalent, and I’ll bare a spirit in constant bouts of doubtfulness. Does a writer earn more because of what he writes and how he does it? Or is a writer paid more or less because of who he is? Is it money or honor he expects to receive?
Ahhh … but money as wage, and praise or honor as reward would be too predictable, too common as Job lamented in the Book of Job. It is in these lines that read: “Is not man’s life on earth nothing more than pressed service, his times no better than hired drudgery? Like the slave, sighing for the shade, or the workman with no thought but his wages, months of delusion I have assigned to me, nothing for my own but nights of grief. Lying in bed I wonder, ‘When will it be day?’ Risen I think, ‘How slowly evening comes!’
Restlessly I fret till twilight falls. Swifter than a weaver’s shuttle my days have passed, and vanished, leaving no hope behind. Remember that my life is but a breath, and that my eyes will never again see joy.”
Not money but joy is the ultimate wage as the passage implies. And joy is not hard to earn for it is in everyday life if we have eyes to see, a nose to smell, fingers to touch, ears to hear–a heart beating. This to me, is how a writer earns a daily wage. His wages then take the guise of treasures his heart can transfigure into a universe of thought that taps into other hearts, that causes a swirl in the depth of other souls, or that makes wings to sprout on leaden heels.
Sometimes not joy but rueful, poignant moments are my pick. Take what I earned once: On my walk home in my neighborhood, I caught two clumps of snowdrops–such tiny blossoms smaller than fingertips that do not look up but shyly droop close to black patches on the ground winter has frozen. That afternoon in the frosty wind, they trembled as if ready to turn away and run but how could they? For that poignant moment on seeing the wintry rain beat on the fragile snowdrop–as if pushing it to go home now, go to sleep–I earned my jornal, my daily wage.
Once on summer walk, the crackle of dried leaves just hit me both like the laughter of children and sobs long suppressed. Neither one of them would resolve the dryness, but I recalled how each does bring tears: laughter for joy, sobs for healing that comes with the release of a dammed-up pain. My jornal that day came as two haiku.
Fall has since shortened the day and the heart begins to crave for lost space that it doesn’t even recall which or where. I feel that most treasures have turned into mush so much so I wouldn’t be able to sift them off the ground. Yet I caught the dying day yesterday–so glorious in the gold of autumn it opened a flip side of serene heaven. Blades of grass coated in diadems of rain that carpet the lawns render royal walks poor by imitation. A burst of red maple against an inky blue sky humbled me, a soul bragging about her skill to recreate beauty in words.
I suppose I’m taking Job’s reflections to heart. I’d rather not gloss over each day and look beyond what’s there, right before me, or else fragile as is my breath one day “my eyes may never again see joy” to write. With what then will I compare the eternal joy, the ultimate wage I await?
Yet for now, as other eyes hanker to make the invisible visible, I put a tag on some moments of joy. Like on seeing the snowdrops, I paid myself $200 as my jornal.
What could have been yours?
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